I am not afraid or ashamed to say. "I caused my own cancer." Because I did.
My relationship with having cancer has been a deeply empowering one for me because I knew where my cancer came from.
Not a journey where I say "f*** cancer and "cancer you messed with the wrong person?"
My cancer journey has been my empowerment of learning about myself and cancer from the inside out.
Somehow I was gifted an awareness about my cancer diagnosis that many
people still seem to be missing the boat on.
Where do people think cancer came from if it did not start inside their own body. Some say it's in their family and their genes. That story pretty much gets shut down if someone were to study Dr. Bruce Lipton and Epigenetics.
I know what foods I ate that I knew were not healthy. I know what stress I had been under. I knew I set my body/mind up for developing cancer. I knew it.
Cancer is not something that just pops up out of nowhere. Nor is cancer a person that's messing with me that I am telling it messed with the wrong person.
It is a result of many processes gone awry in the body which causes cells to mutate(cancer) and causes a paralyzed immune system. Sometimes it's from toxic food, sometimes viruses(yep) and vaccines(yep), and other things that are unhealthy period. This includes unhealthy mental and emotional states in the conscious mind and subconscious mind. A lot of the time it's from nutritional deficiencies.
It's a simple as that. And not so simple. But cancer is not something that just appears. It grows sometimes quickly and in my case had been growing slowly for years in my body.
When I was diagnosed I tried really hard to feel sorry for myself and to tried to be a victim, to believe I had been "wronged" in some way by this mystery called cancer. I couldn't do it. Or rather some higher spiritual power would not allow me to look at it that way.
What Caused My Cancer?
So that feeling sorry for myself didn't last long because I knew the habits I used to have and I knew that I had under a tremendous amount of stress and I knew I was not as healthy as I could have been, despite being pretty darn healthy.
I say this because so many people do not want to look at their lives, deep, deep, deep into themselves to understand how their body/mind works and why their cancer(or other disease, illness or "diagnosis") developed.
I read an article recently where someone was saying that cancer was an injustice and that it was something to rally against?
It made me laugh.
What is being rallied against? Cancer is not an organization or a corporation that warrants being rallied against. Cancer is not some government entity that just caused an injustice to it's people.
Cancer is a disease in the body(and mind, yep) I mean DIS EASE, meaning there is un ease and imbalance in the body /mind.
Even more of a deeper mental massage was as I have explored my mind more deeply I have come to understand and experience how deeply held self limiting beliefs stored in my subconscious mind had been affecting my body for my whole life, keeping me in a constant state of chronic stress.
It is stress that weakens the immune system, coupled with nutritional deficiencies(I had them) coupled with eating toxic foods(I had my share of them), drinking toxic drinks(I had my share of them), breathing toxic air and toxic relationships(I had my share of them) including a deeply subconscious toxic relationship with myself. Physical stress, mental stress, emotional stress and even spiritual stress.
For me to put my diagnosis on something outside of me seems absolutely absurd , in fact God wouldn't let me see it any other way as I was gently guided into understanding why I had let my body/mind get so toxic and overwhelmed with stress. God kept giving me a gentle massage of awareness of what I had done to myself.
Even me trusting God was part of a deeper health journey as I realized a higher power had absolutely been helping to guide my to health my whole life. I just wasn't very good at always listening until I got diagnosed with cancer.
My Health Was And Is My Responsibility
That is why I could never let myself be a victim to cancer.
But rather I am a warrior for my own health..for understanding that I had the power to be healthy by having healthy habits. This meant cleaning up my subconscious mind which was when I got guided to PSYCH-K and programming my subconscious mind for health.
Was I sad, terrified, ashamed, and angry when I first got diagnosed. Heck yes, times 10. I let myself have all of those feelings for a time. But there was no one outside of me to blame. And I didn't really ever blame myself.
Sure there were corporations like Monsanto poisoning food supplies and chemtrails with heavy metals. Sure I didn't get raised to eat the best foods.
But what it came down to for me was a place of forgiveness in myself. One that I didn't have an awareness to eat certain foods that kept cancer at bay and two that there was nothing to forgive. Because I had lived my life the best possible way that I had with my awareness. Still no one to blame. Just to increase my awareness.
Then began the journey to learn more and more about my mind/body and cancer and to really allow myself to heal, to be healthy and to love myself from the inside out.
This isn't about which treatment works best chemotherapy or natural treatment?
This is about no matter what cancer treatment path a person chooses, they still have a deep responsibility to their body, to their mind and to understanding the cancer(or other dis ease) that developed in their body/ mind. Looking deeply inside and outside.
I realize it is the programming of many people's minds(and a good deal of society) to create victims in relation to health and illness, so this post may fall on dear ears.
Maybe it will make a difference in someone's life to understand that they have the power inside of them to be empowered in their health instead of believing they play no true active role in their health and cancer(and other diagnosis') are being "done" to them.
So I am not a victim to the " a cancer bad thing outside me ". But rather have had a wonderful journey owning my health and owning my responsibility to it and learning that my mind is supremely powerful in affecting how my body is.
Which is why I would never be a victim...because that's telling my body a whole different story than being a warrior for health.
Peace and blessings,