What to do now? Heal, rest, grow, learn, inspire and teach.
This cancer journey continues to squeeze every ounce of awareness and strength from within my being.
I have learned so much about cancer, more than probably most non medical people. I have searched and searched because I wanted to be in control of my body, my mind, as much as I could be.
My cancer journey started as, shall we say, a light massage of awareness for my mind, body and spirit. A beginners yoga of cancer journey.
As I have progressed along my cancer journey, it has turned into a cellular deep tissue massage of my body and an advanced yoga cancer journey of mind and spirit.
In my experience I have learned that very few people want to learn about cancer healing or cancer prevention until it happens to them and even then many still do not want to travel the depths.
For me, there was no place to go but deeper into my journey. And so here I am in depths of understanding a disease that is physical, emotional and spiritual in nature. It was an awareness I never thought I would understand but I do now.
My heart yearns to teach others what I have learned. But I know that until a person is ready the teacher will not appear.
Cancer has been the greatest teacher of my entire life. Physically, emotionally and spiritually.
It first started in June 2012 when I was diagnosed with Stage IIa colon cancer. I had surgery to remove a tumor and 28 lymph nodes. Stage IIa means that the cancer was not in my lymph nodes. Good news and God news! Yet I quickly found out that surgery does not cure cancer. Surgery only cuts out the tumor. As I learned that curing cancer requires shifting factors in the body that cause cancer. The physical, emotional and spiritual factors.
I pretty much knew why I had developed cancer from the physical perspective. Although when I was diagnosed I was eating pretty healthy, I had my whole childhood and young adult life eaten toxic food and drinks. The tumor likely started years before and had been growing slowly in my body.
My immune system had not been able to eliminate the cancer tumor. Because even though I was not eating super unhealthy I was not eating the right foods that kept my immune system strong enough.
Plus I just learned(as a result of working with Dr. Davis in Palo Cedro) that I had pretty much never eaten foods with b17 in them. B17 is also called laetrile. Laetrile disables the protective enzyme around cancer cells that keep them hidden from the immune system.
So even though I cut out the tumor, the remaining cancer cells(and they remain after cancer surgery) still were able to get a strong hold again in my body and produce more and more nagalase. My immune system was still not strong enough and that's what Dr. Davis is helping with too.
The emotional aspect of my cellular massage journey was that I had never truly loved myself. I mean LOVED myself. I am a giver, a nurturer and caretaker, but deep down, on a cellular level I had never loved myself the way I had loved others. This has a huge impact on the emotional immune system our bodies have. It did on mine.
My healing started when I began to learn to fill myself up from the inside with my own love, instead of looking for it outside of myself.
Spiritually. The spiritual aspect of cancer was my deeper disconnection to God within me. I had never really had a relationship with understanding that God flows in and through and as me.
The cancer journey continually teaches me to surrender to God, to this higher power. It teaches me to look to this higher power for inspiration, guidance and healing.
There is more to the physical, emotional and spiritual aspects of my cancer journey, but the most important points for me are above. All I know is I have surrendered to my journey for years now.
It's all I could do but surrender when diagnosed in 2012, I had no super close friends, and was fighting for my life physically, emotionally and spiritually, literally. I was dying on all levels. So I surrendered to God and allowed God to work it's power in my life. That's what I did the days after I was diagnosed and continue to do now, even in the midst of learning of my newest test results.
This whole journey continues to teach me how I have always had powerful spiritual allies who guide me to exactly where I am supposed to be. Always and in ALL WAYS.
It was that guidance that led me to Dr. Davis after almost 3 years of no cancer testing. Dr. Davis is incredible and has been helping me truly cleanse my body on the intracellular level and an intercellular level. His nutritional supplements, the cancer treatments supplements he has me on and his photon genius are working cellular wonders in me on all levels.
I have total faith that the cancer will now be healed.
I never imagined I would come to understand cancer healing to this depth.
So wild too, because I have never felt more healthy on all levels! This is an extraordinary lesson in presence and faith knowing that I feel so healthy, but that I still have cancer somewhere in my body.
Sometimes it is difficult for me to speak about my natural cancer treatment journey because so many people still take the traditional cancer treatment route and many of them are not kind to people who choose the non-traditional route. So many people want to think that they know what is right for me.
My intuition, my guidance was never to accept that cancer was something that had just happened to me. I had too much knowing that there was something more to cancer. I wanted to find out what it was. And I have.
It has humbled me in understanding, physical, emotional and spiritual disease in the body. Because I have had to look at that within myself.
In every cell in my body I know that my path is the right path for me. As utterly challenging as it is, the physical, emotional and spiritual cleansing happening in me is astounding.
The greatest teachers I think, teach us to travel the depths of our being and dig in to ourselves to plant our roots within our place in the world, to sink into being who we are and being true to who we are. The greatest teachers teach us to grow upwards and radiate strength and love for others. The greatest teachers teach us who we are and were we come from.
Cancer has done that for me. That is the blessing of this cancer journey.
I am a massage therapist, a yoga teacher and a healer. How could I not learn how to help people heal the deepest aspect of this disease(that is increasing in numbers) if I did not go through it myself.
That's how God works sometimes. Takes you on a journey for a higher purpose. That's what I know about being on this journey. Especially when you know you are here to serve, as I do.
That is why cancer has been my greatest massage teacher and yoga teacher, because it truly drew me within myself in an extraordinary way. Maybe I will be able to helps others do that too. You can also find out more of what I learned about cancer on my www.Healthy-With-Cancer.com website.
Peace and Blessings,
Advanced Massage Solutions and Yoga
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Redding, Ca 96001